I think possibly one of my biggest struggles ever has been with surrendering everything [ My hopes, my dreams, my future, my heart, my life] to Jesus. I mean it’s easy to say that you’re a Christian or a believer, whichever you want to call it, but when it comes to actually doing what God says it becomes a whole different story.
So on my journey I discovered that I’m covered in pride that I didn’t even knew existed. Even though everything I wanted to do was for God, it didn’t really matter, because none of it would be of any significance if I wasn’t willing to minister to God and not man. So then I really stopped caring about what people would say and I really started caring about God’s acceptance.
Later on I learned that that was also actually not the problem. When I entered a desert season and I wasn’t hearing anything for myself I got super scared and disappointed. I had to make a lot of decisions and it felt like I was left in the dark. Then I realized that it was time…
TIME to surrender.
But still I didn’t really want to do it, because I thought the plans that I were making was pretty cool and legit. I started feeling more empty and disappointed day by day. A friend spoke with me the one night and told me that it would be best for me. The funny thing is that in my heart I’ve always known that God’s plans are way better than any one of the simple plans that I was configuring.
Some kind of fear, anxiety and depression broke of the moment that I told Jesus that I’m ready to surrender everything into His hands and that I’m okay with it if He wants to remove some of my dreams, as long as He uses me and make it worth it.
He reminded me of Matthew 16:24.
“Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.”
To me that basically says surrender everything, full stop!
To our Human Nature surrendering everything seems absurd, BUT it is so worth it, because when you surrender everything you become fully dependent on God and that is when the miracles start happening. At least God is pretty gentle and He knows the perfect timing for that.
Surrendering is the bravest thing you can do!
It is also the most difficult thing you can do,
but I challenge you to try!